My very own website!!! Yikes!

Anyone else feel like they are missing a decade?

Somehow, it is 2019. I seem to have lost a whole decade somewhere.
You mention 10 years ago and I think Spice Girls, university, nights out drinking with friends.
But that was 20 years ago. TWENTY!
I have been vegetarian for 20 years. I left for uni 20 years ago. I passed my driving test 20 years ago.
Back in 1999, we were worrying about the Millennium Bug and my mum was stockpiling (some of it is still there and being resurrected for Brexit doom!) In 1999 I voted for the first time.

Scoot forward to 2009 (although the above pic was 2008). I have no idea that I will be pregnant by the end of the year. I dress up as the White Witch from The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe for World Book Day at my work (a school). I buy my third car (a blue Fiesta that I only replaced when we had Zach in 2016).
I know that the last 9 years have been crazy busy with children but I am convinced that time is having a laugh.
I’m not alone. The other week I went to the chippy that I used to go at lunch times when  I was dental nursing (2002-2005) and the owner recognised me and asked if I still worked at the practice. I commented that I’d left 14 years ago (it required some quick calculation!) and both of us were shocked and incredulous.

Almost 2 years ago, I went to a school reunion. It was strange to meet up with classmates that had changed so much but also so little.
I will be 40 in 2 years time (photo taken last year on my birthday). That is grown up territory.
Do I feel grown up? Yes and no.
Do I feel different to 10 years ago, 20 years ago? Yes and no.
Do I feel middle aged? Definitely not!
Becoming a mum has defined my life and given me a sense of purpose and hope that I never imagined possible. Becoming a wife has surprised me with a happiness I never believed possible. Becoming a blogger has given me a voice and allowed me to write and have opportunities to make a better life for my family.

Time is a strange thing. There has been awful grief and despair in those 20 years. There has been fear, phobias, depression. There has been pain (giving birth 3 times as well as emotional distress).
But none of those compares to the happiness, the love, the laughter. Every second has made my life better and given it meaning, creating memories that will last a lifetime even though the time itself seems to disappear in a heartbeat.

For those of you wondering, here is me at my prom in 1999:
Is time playing tricks with you? Do you remember the 90s like they were yesterday?


  1. I’m exactly the same. I went to uni in 2000 and if feels like a lifetime ago. I can’t believe it’s been almost 20 years! Nice memories collected on the way though.


  2. You have not changed (in appearance) in 20 years! You are still very young looking. No wonder the last decade has zipped by for you – having 3 kids makes the time fly! 🙂

  3. I am almost 10 years older than you and you have the best decade still to come! I have loved my 40’s so far as parenting becomes more emotional rather than physical, there’s more time for you and what you like to do and you tend to know your own mind better. I loved the end of the 80’s and 90’s and can’t believe that I have been married for almost 24 years! Crazy….it goes in a blink of an eye. Take care. #globalblogging

  4. Yes the way time flows is crazy! My youngest turned 20 on April 11, my oldest turned 25 on April 14. So those years are very memorable, because of all the children milestones that pass by, every birthday and Holiday marking time, but I still feel much younger than I have become.

  5. oh I so fully agree with you – yeah, I still think somebody born in the 80ies can’t really have a ‘proper’ job, until a friend of mine who is a GP told me how surprised he was that a new trainee doctor who started in the practice was born in the 90ies… #globalblogging

  6. My boys are in their early 20s now and I am 57 years old. After putting my life on hold and everything I wanted to do on the backburner for 2 decades , I am now living it up, checking off things from my bucket list one by one! It’s true what they say – life does begin at 50!

  7. I feel the same way! 10 years ago…in 2009, I was 24 and living the single life to the fullest by focusing on my career (and going to the gym everyday for pole dancing classes, yoga, and zumba). Now I’m a work-at-home mom to two toddler boys! I have no time to go to the gym! Haha. But my everyday workout involves carrying screaming toddlers. LOL! It’s crazy how time flies. 20 years ago, in 1999 I was in love with this boy who was a wannabe rockstar. NOW I’m super friends with his wife! And he didn’t turn out to be a rockstar…he works in business now. Crazy. Bwahaha…and I’m going to visit their family next month in Singapore. Time flies. #globalblogging

  8. I had my youngest child in 1999, separated from my 1st husband and met my new husband, the last 20 years with the children seems a distant memory now of night feeds and nappy changes, but I can’t believe I’ve now know my husband for 20 years, that only seems like 5 mins ago we met

  9. Yes! I definitely remember the 90’s like it was yesterday. It’s hard to believe it’s been 20 years plus. Of course I graduated from high in ’95 so when my 20 year high school reunion came up it felt like such a surprise because it doesn’t feel like it’s been that long. Yet, so much has happened in my life in those 20 plus years. Now my oldest will be graduating from high school next year and it’s still so hard to believe. Thanks so much for hosting #GlobalBlogging

  10. What a lovely post Laura and you’re certainly not alone. I always say the older I get the more that time seems to speed up! Enjoy the milestones & things will get easier with the kids as they get older – they certainly have for me xx

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